Wandering Around
I wasn't going to post today -- as a matter of fact, I had no intentions of coming online at all. I figured I'd spend the day in bed wailing into my pillow like a damned fool.
See, my Momma passed away last August and today is her birthday.
I started thinking about what she would feel if she could see me acting like an idiot, and I felt a phantom foot up my ass. It was most uncomfortable, so I put on my Big Girl Panties and tried to get my shiz whiz together.
How's it going? Uh, not so good.
I tried writing something for the blog, but that didn't work out. I don't want to work on my own novel in this frame of mind, because until now, it's been going really well and I'm afraid this mind-set in which I find myself will derail the progress so far. (I wrote 20k + in one week.) So, I figured I'd just hang out where the company is grand. You know, wander around and poke in the corners, if ya'll don't mind.
I'll field questions, and read stuff.
If you'd like, you can read a post about my Momma. She's was quite the woman.
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*poke, poke*
Are you ticklish? *poke, poke*
So, from your blog, I'm guessing your in the So Cal area?
PETA = People Eating Tasty Animals
A failure to plan on your part does not constitute an emergency on my part.
I am ticklish but *where* I'm
I am ticklish but *where* I'm ticklish is classified information.
Actually, I was born in Los Angeles, grew up in central New York (about 30 miles south of Syracuse) and moved to Kentucky about five years ago. I didn't like it there (I had too many teeth to really fit in) and now I reside just outside St. Louis. I love it here.
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Upstate NY
Ooh! Welcome to the Upstate NY regional MLM fan club!
Supreme Minister of All Livestock
"Use, do not abuse. Neither abstinence nor excess renders man happy." - Voltaire
I've been peeking around and
I've been peeking around and I saw you guys are planning a Ren Faire meet-up. I wish I could make it, but I haven't been back to NY since I left (long story.) I LUFF the Ren Faire -- as a matter of fact, I went when it was only in its second year, and it took me thirteen years to get back. It sure had changed!
I took my mom and two daughters and we had a blast. I'll have to dig out the picture of my momma and I in costume. I also have a picture of her feeling up the asses of Don Juan and Miguel. Gods, that was hysterical.
You guys will have so. Much. Fun.
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Plan to.
My mother and I first went when I was about 12 or 13, and I have tried to go at least once a year since. This year I'm hoping to go in garb
When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth. -Arthur Conan Doyle
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It is pitch black. You are likely to be eaten by a grue.
I know, it never gets old,
I know, it never gets old, does it? I've been several time, and I loved it. Take lots and lots of pictures!
It's so beautiful in Sterling. Actually, central NY is really the most beautiful place on the planet, I think.
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Wish you could join us! If
Wish you could join us! If you don't post it beforehand, add your picture to the thread of post-meet-up photos.
Also, I'd recommend a pile of favorite or new books, several conveniently placed tissue boxes, and lots of tea and/or hot chocolate to help you muddle through the day (used teabags feel good pressed over closed tear-sore eyelids). That's what helps me, anyway.
Oh, and lots and lots of internet hugs.
:::::::::::huugggggggs:::::::::::
Supreme Minister of All Livestock
"Use, do not abuse. Neither abstinence nor excess renders man happy." - Voltaire
I can't get to the pictures
I can't get to the pictures right now, but when I do I definitely will post.
Your suggestions are excellent and I did abuse chocolate and a favorite book. I feel a little better.
Thanks for the hugs
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Sorry to hear about your mom.
I don't know when the Ren Fest in StL is, but the KC one is in September/October. I think we have a few more History fans in MO & KS if the map is accurate...maybe we can plan a meetup of our own.
Try here?
http://www.stlrenfaire.com/
I knew they had one, since I have seen in mentioned by a few of the costumer sites.
It would be so cool if we start a trend and start having ren faire meet-ups all over the place. I'd love to see pictures of what other festivals do.
When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth. -Arthur Conan Doyle
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It is pitch black. You are likely to be eaten by a grue.
Thx for the link!
After I posted that, I was thinking it had already passed--remembered some of my StL friends talking about going in May. Another one that's in May is the one in Muskogee, OK...it has the distinction of being held in a "castle." I should get the pics off my camera one of these days. It was pretty neat, but I'm extremely partial to the KC RenFest.
It's the one I grew up going to and we go at least once/year. It has been held on the same grounds for over 25 years, so it's pretty established.
That's a great idea and I'd
That's a great idea and I'd be interested.
It's a Pirate Festival! How cool is that? (aRRRGH, me mateys!)
(All the other cool kids will be SO JEALOUS. Heh.)
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*sniffs*
My grandma also passed away last August, but her BDay is in February so I'm good for another month. At which time I expect to come undone spectacularly.
Sex, gays, and violence--Dead Boyfriend by yours truly. Volume One finished!
I'm so sorry. I know what you
I'm so sorry. I know what you mean. I am not looking forward to next month, at all. To be perfectly honest, I'm a little scared.
Someone told me that the "firsts" are the hardest, and it gets easier after that. I sure hope they're telling the truth and not fucking with me, because up to now it has sucked the hairy, sweaty, smelly balls of Lucifer.
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Birfdays
they suck when the one who has it is gone. My mom died last November and her birthday was in May. The day was not good - the days leading up to it were not good - the few days AFTER were also not good, as Mother's Day is always close to her birthday. Toss in that my dad MADE me go to the cemetary and put out flowers (yes, I'm an adult and yes, he still made me...by making me take a pic, like he always does, to prove I was there) when I didn't want to.
Oddly enough, I expected MY birthday without my mom to be really hard. It was hard, but not as bad as I was fearing. And I'm coming to the conclusion that if I expect it to really bad, I actually end up doing better because NOTHING can match my imagination on the bad scheme.
*hugs* The firsts are a bitch. I don't know if they get better...talk to me at Christmas.
I don't think you're crazy. I think you're colorful. The kind of colorful that does well with medication!
My wish list
I'm sorry for your loss.
I'm sorry for your loss. You're right, the days leading up and the days after suck. I think I've swallowed the rock for now. Onward.
Thanks for the words and the hugs. It really does help.
*hugs*
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I grieve with thee
Yes firsts are the worst. Best advice I ever got & I continue to give it to others is to break your routine.
If birthdays were always big family get-to-gether's then plan for a select few to go out somewhere.
If they were normally small intimate gatherings than plan a huge blow out. Allow yourself to get caught up in all the planning & then plan some more.
Work yourself into exhaustion over the birthdays, & holidays.
And on the anniversary of the death itself ... plan to spend the day doing a lot of heavy grubbing in the dirt or any other kind of Labor intensive work that you actualy need to pay attention to. Then go out with friends that night to help distract you even further from the fact that your loved one is not there. Or spend the day doing very charitable work at soup kitchens, or holding unwanted babies at a hospital.
It will always suck, but if you allow yourself to get pulled into how much it sucks, it will suck 10 times more
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
Thanks, Amy. I think your
Thanks, Amy. I think your suggestions for the anniversary date are Most Excellent, and I believe I will be implementing them. Especially the grubbing in the dirt thing.
I understand about mind-set. I'm working on it.
Thanks again.
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You are very welcome
I hope it helps to some degree or another. It might help to also note that you are not trying to run away from the pain, You have already suffered through the worst of that. Your goal is to help yourself get around the next hurdle in the healing process.
It does help a lot too. I went through 5 years in a row where a loved one died at Christmas time. It got to the point where I was mentally planning where each & every decoration was going to be placed starting in September. With every year I devised a new decorating plan too. I now devise decorating plans for my family members every year. After a few years time I've been able to leave things go as far as planing is concerned until late November.
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
Isn't it sad that if it's not
Isn't it sad that if it's not NYC, it's "upstate"? Pet peeve of mine, don't mind me.
Anyways, sorry to hear about your loss, and the upcoming anniversary of it. Not something I can relate to, but still, it sucks.
Normally I would avoid replying to this kind of thread, as I'm not very good at expressing sympathies (as you can obviously tell from above, I much prefer waiting for the tears to end and then stepping in and trying to cheer the person up and make them smile). But I found parts of your post quite amusing, so I figured I should share. Big Girl Panties immediately conjured images of Wonder Woman tighty-whities like what 4yr olds wear and "shiz whiz", well, that's a good one. I think I'm going to have to test that one out in a convo or two. I remember the days when there was nothing that Spiderman underwear and a cape couldn't solve.
P.S.- The Adirondacks and Ithaca area are way better than central NY.
I hate flat and barely tolerate rolling hills.
teehee
You, and about 100,000,000 teenage boys.
It's supposed to be a challenge, that's why they call it a shortcut. If it was easy it would just be the way.
--Road Trip
"Funny. Terrible, but funny." (that's typically my aim)
-NorthwoodsMan
Damnit.
You almost made me snort water out my nose, but I swallowed it before getting to your post.
And before you go trying to make a joke out of it:
When you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth. -Arthur Conan Doyle
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It is pitch black. You are likely to be eaten by a grue.
I haven't trademarked "shiz
I haven't trademarked "shiz whiz" so go ahead and drop it in conversations and let me know how it does.
I think I need a cape. I really do. Sometimes, when she's having a bad day, my daughter will wear her prom dress around the house and a tiara I got for her a while back. She sits on a kitchen chair and waves around a fairy wand and says stuff like, "I Decree!"
Her BF is Not Amused, but it cracks me up.
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From the XY perspective...
I think I'd also be in the "not amused" camp...if it were TBG.
Anyone else, I'm laughing.
It's supposed to be a challenge, that's why they call it a shortcut. If it was easy it would just be the way.
--Road Trip
"Funny. Terrible, but funny." (that's typically my aim)
-NorthwoodsMan
For a friend of mine
For a friend of mine, it's tiara, fairy wand, & the rattiest old blood red bathrobe you could ever imagine. As her goal is to elevate herself by making us laugh she usually succeeds.
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
cape!
I know just the person! srsly! Superflykidz! She's making a cape for Sir to wear on his bike!
:snerk: Not that I know what
:snerk:
Not that I know what Sir looks like, but imagining any guy on a bike with a custom cape.... yeah =P
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Sir
Shortish hair, luxuriant chops, waxed handlebar mustache, goatee. Not fat, but a big guy. He has a monkey head visor on his helmet, and we ride extremely tricked-out bikes. (He's visible enough *without* the cape.) He's a cutie, but then, I'm biased.
That's a brilliant idea
My prom dress is totally a fairy princess dress (that's why I picked it out, after all--the second time I wore it I even wore my wings with it). I am definitely going to do that next time I'm feeling miserable.
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Honestly, it's really great
Honestly, it's really great for the morale. I make sure all the girlz close to me have their own tiaras.
I'd wear my wedding dress and do it but 1) I burned it and 2) well, I burned it. Heh.
I think I need to get a fairy gown for just this very purpose.
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Burned it huh???
Wow, & I thought my marriage ended badly. Personally there are very few bad days that I can't fix for myself with a huge home made Mocha Milkshake. recipe to follow in the proper forum.
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
Oh yes, 'twas burned in a
Oh yes, 'twas burned in a bonfire with nekkid dancing and everything. It seemed appropriate. All the bad stuff went up in smoke, because I sure wasn't going to carry it around with me.
It was either that or throw HIS ass on the fire, and I figured I'd probably get arrested for that. Heh.
Mmmmm...mocha milkshake....
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I like youuuu.
I simply threw my ring into Niagara Falls. & then had a feast with friends who very kindly trash talked about him while feeding all sorts of yummy foods.
Go find my recipe for the Mocha Milkshake. I even listed variations.
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
Alla Ka Zim
"Alla Ka Zim Alla Ka Zam You are now a tea cup that says bam" are the types of things that my friend has been know to say. It never takes long for us all to be laughing so hard that her mood is elevated & she keeps it up because it's funny.
Anything that kills your inner-song is always going to be bad for you. - Personal Wisdom
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