In Which I Am Rewired

  • Posted on: 15 July 2013
  • By: MeiLin

Today is the last installment of Son in Sorrow. When a book ends serialization, it always brings me down--especially when the next book isn't ready. Book two wasn't ready when book one ended, and book three isn't near ready now. If you haven't looked at The Machine God yet, please do. It will be running from now through the end of the year, I think; I haven't finished putting it all in the scheduler. It updates every Wednesday.

One of the reasons book three isn't ready: I'm going in for heart surgery this Friday, a procedure I've been dreading the better part of a year. It's minor as heart surgery goes. They're not opening my chest, for instance. But they are mucking about with it, and given my history I'm rather more than nervous. I've had a hard time concentrating; finishing up Machine God, for instance, was a real effort.

But in one real way, this surgery will be the end of the troubles that began in 2006. When they first put this device in my chest--an "internal cardio-defibrillator" or ICD--we thought that was the end. If my heart ever stopped again, the ICD would restart it.Then, not three months after they installed it, the maker recalled the wire attaching it to my heart. It fractured more easily than other ICD wires, meaning it might break and thus deliver unnecessary shocks to my heart until the battery wore down. One person I've talked to was shocked upwards of 30 times in one of those incidents. Each time it's like a horse kicking you in the chest. Imagine getting kicked 30 times in a row. For seven years, I've had that hanging over my head.

This Friday, I'll go into the hospital and they'll replace my old ICD; its battery is almost dead. At the same time, they'll be replacing the defective wire. They're gonna use a laser to dig out the old wire and put the new one in. Then I'll spend the night in CICU and go home the next day if all goes well. I'll be without my left arm for a couple of weeks and not be allowed to lift anything heavier than a couple of pounds for a few months.

When it's over, I think--I know--I'll be able to concentrate. And I hope to finish book three in record time.

Think good thoughts for me on Friday. If you want to follow the surgery's progress, follow the hashtag #rewire2013 on twitter.


Kt Obermanns's picture

Good luck. We care about you,and are holding you in our thoughts!

Tigger's picture


I am waiting anxiously with you. I know this has been hard on you, just from a few things you've written. I will be very happy for you when this is over, when the specter of shock anticipation is gone. I am worried for you, but I know you're going to skate through this. Why? Because you're Mei!! You have an amazing support system, and a very amazing family.

NorthwoodsMan's picture


and prayers coming your way, as always....

TheBoy's picture


All the best from my little corner of the world.

Gudy's picture


... they said - best of luck. I'll be thinking good thoughts all Friday.


gwennah's picture

Take care and best wishes. Know that you are in our thoughts and can't wait to read any and everything you write next:)

Clare-Dragonfly's picture


Best of luck. Hopefully it's over by now and everything has gone extremely well!

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